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Guys I'm sorry I havent been as active with rping or with art. I've been having a lot of issues lately, and I havent been in the best condition to do a whole lot... I'll see if I can't get back to this stuff again after, but I'm going to the doctor for now... I luh yew guys, and again, I'm sorry 
Rest Easy My Friend
Today I found out some devastating news..
An old friend of mine that I had lost contact with twice in the past due to them having bullying and harassment issues was murdered about a year ago... I used to be close with their family, but because of how long our absence was, they couldn't fully recall who I was.
Brian was an outstanding friend of mine. And I never thought I'd have to face another online friends death... I was wrong.
We had been friends sense I was about 12. We were tight and formed a strong bond by 13. At 14, he'd already had to make multiple new accounts to try and flee from bullying and harassment. He eventually left and
I simply don't know
I just don't know anymore guys.. I'm lost. I'm genuinely lost and I feel hopeless.
My depression is tearing me apart and I have zero faith in myself anymore...
A few people think I have clinical depression and need to get on pills stat, but I don't want to. I always said I never would because they can fuck everything up... I don't want it to get worse. It can't.
After all the shit that happened with my ex I've been on a constant downward spiral.
I'm genuinely convinced he might try to hunt me down and kill me one day.
Stupid shit sets me off.
I don't enjoy anything anymore.
Not art, or games, or anything..
Talking to people is
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I need someone to talk to
Someone please note me, I need help right now.. please
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hope you feel better soon<3